Why.
I love you for all the things your body does to mine
And all that you allow mine to do to yours in return.
I love you because no one else gives me such wonderfully
Surreal conversations.
(Most of which happen when we're in bed.)
I love you because you give awesome hugs.
I love you for a million different tiny things
You do or say
That make me stop and realise how lucky I am
To have you in my life.
I love you because even though we don't get to see each other
Half as often as we would like
When we do see each other
It's like we never parted, like coming home.
That is why I love you.
Life has a funny way of balancing out.
It can take you from the lowest low
Twist you around,
Turn you inside out,
Flip your entire world on it's head
And take you to the highest, most exquisite place..
And then deliver a blow to your heart
So hard
So searing
That you cannot breathe.
Can't see straight,
Your bright new life swims before you
As your eyes fill.
And your nice new life
Suddenly tastes a slight bit less sweet.
Have I ever told you
How much I really care?
Did I ever say to you
Or did you notice by yourself?
All I've wanted
for a very long time
Is for you to call me yours
And for you to be mine
I will love you from afar
I will love you from far away
I will wait for you to tell me yes
Until you tell me no.
You don't like to hear
How I really feel.
You say you can't feel the same
Until you mend yourself.
I want to help you heal
Help you to be well
But you can't let me in
So I am left outside
And I will love you from afar
I will love you from far away
I will wait for you to tell me yes
Until you tell me no.
I cannot wait
For t
I wear who I am like armour,
A solid metal suit
Of personality.
Layers of experience,
Inlaid with thoughts,
Padded with those I hold close.
And then you return.
Your words shoot through this armour
Like needle pointed arrows.
Your sentences cut like blades
And even my friends cannot defend me from them.
You manage to cut through
All my carefully laid plans
And find my core.
And inside..
I am just a small child
Crying for their father
For the parent who is no longer there.
Why can't you stay in my past?
So solid and strong,
I cry so easily.
Deep of thought,
I think without acting.
Gentle and kind,
I hurt those I care about.
Loving so deeply,
I hate so completely.
Internal Conflict.
Why must everything be a battle.
Why must we run uphill.
Why must I find some shining jewel
Only to find it in someone else's crown.
Why can't I just be content.
Why must I keep on fighting.
Why can't I just live with what I've got
Instead of wanting what I can't get.
Why do I feel tired of trying.
Why am I shying away.
Why do I feel like a coward
And why can't I just mean what I say.
En Amdir Eruui
Híth norol thar endór
No gwilith arélin.
únad ha baro
A ha no ring farn los.
Ennas úno edraith o sí.
Hé no Amdir Eruuiin
A aníroch i hé
No um olor,
I dimb úno tír.
Le nol glennol an uir.
Translation
The Hope Wastes
Mist settles across the land
Under a sky without stars
Nothing stirs here
And it is cold enough to snow.
There is no escape from here
This is the hope wastes
And you wish that this
Is just a bad dream,
That the sadness is not real
You are lost forever
Why.
I love you for all the things your body does to mine
And all that you allow mine to do to yours in return.
I love you because no one else gives me such wonderfully
Surreal conversations.
(Most of which happen when we're in bed.)
I love you because you give awesome hugs.
I love you for a million different tiny things
You do or say
That make me stop and realise how lucky I am
To have you in my life.
I love you because even though we don't get to see each other
Half as often as we would like
When we do see each other
It's like we never parted, like coming home.
That is why I love you.
Goddess Song
I am the thunder,lightning,
I am the rain.
I am constant, ever changing,
Still the same.
I am the life, death,
I am somewhere in between,
I am invisible, a spirit,
Yet I'm seen.
Fear
You're all alone,
It's late at night,
Theres no one left to blame,
Yourself you cannot fight.
You start to run
As the moon begins to rise,
As you run through the forest,
You hear the distant cries.
There's no where to hide,
You have run out of ideas,
But she knows you,
Knows your hates and your fears
Black as Death,
And cold as ice,
She's beautiful, and deadly,
And man is she not nice.
Now you're trapped in a corner,
Nowhere to escape,
From out of the darkness,
There comes a distant shape.
Your heart beats faster,
Blood sweet with adrenalin,
She smiles at you,
But her patience is wearing thin.
Teeth like need
God said this to me,
In that still small voice of His
That whispers in the trees,
With the wisdom of eternity,
I am the wind, I am the rain,
I am the sun and all the stars,
I am both jupiter and i am mars.
I am the ground beneath your feet,
I am the sky above your head, and when you are tired, my lonely one,
I am your chair, I am your bed.
I am the road to high adventure,
I am the cave in which you hide,
You'll find me in your brightest laughter,
And i was there when you last cried.
I am the baby in your arms,
I am the child who takes your hand,
I am the one who runs away,
Will you ever, ever understand?
But
I Walk Alone
I walk on the dark side of the street,
And I walk alone.
I desire nothing.
I am free.
I am like the cat who walks by herself,
Not needing company,
But accepting it when it is offered.
I walk on the dark side of the street,
And I walk alone.
I desire nothing.
I am free.
I am like the wind.
I move silently
Here and there
Unseen, unheard,
But there all the same.
I walk on the dark side of the street,
And I walk alone.
I desire nothing.
I am free.
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Just sit,
Close your eyes,
And listen to the wind.
Let it sing to your soul.
Just stand.
Look at the sky,
The sun shines,
Let it warm your body.
Just dance.
In the forest,
Amongst the trees.
Let it free your mind
Once upon a sixpence,
On a hillside in the night,
A man watched over town,
In his hand he held a light.
Like the million lain before Him,
It was a little spark,
But the beauty that it shone,
Lit up his darkened heart.
The light he held was small,
But stood against the wind,
The rain couldn't even dampen it,
When it was soaked to the skin.
The light he held was called Hope.
She loved him for his soul,
Without him she was nothing,
Together they were whole,
So once upon a sixpence,
On a hillside in the night,
A girl called Hope watched,
This man hold her light.
Wow... nearly 10 years since I made my profile.. since 16 year old me logged into the site for the first time..
.. Bloody hell.
I should totally start putting more up on here.. photos and maybe images of my crochet work or something.. we'll see if I remember.
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